Cory and I are in a "get out of debt" mode somewhat right now. I say "somewhat" because we still love to buy things...especially me! So I told him I really didn't want any gifts this year for Mother's Day and that was the absolute truth.
This weekend has been kind of rough. Work at both my jobs have been a little crazier/more stressful than usual. And I am at a point in my pregnancy where I just constantly hurt. Even sitting and laying down causes me pain. So you can imagine how little sleep I have been getting, and I won't even mention that we are still co-sleeping with Jack and that has been....interesting lately. He just REALLY loves to be held. haha.
I didn't even eat breakfast this morning, I was so tired. I just threw on some clothes that (kinda?) fit and ran out the door. It was so busy at work that I didn't take a lunch break. And then on the way home, an asshole on 435 almost rear-ended me. And I was hangry enough before that!
So by the time I got home I was just not in the best mood, especially considering it's a day designed to make people like me feel special and relaxed. Jack was in a bad mood when I got here, he was just sleepy. Cory went to lay him down and I went to my computer to do some more work. An hour or so passes and I realize Cory never came out of there, haha. So I get started on cleaning a little more to prep for having a handful of family over tonight. I guess I was a little too loud and I woke Cory up. (I should mention that poor Cory has some kind of an infection right now, his entire face is swollen, he looks like he just fought Mayweather) He came out and apologized for sleeping. But I sent him back to bed.
Today has not been ideal, I will say that. If I really had to say how I would spend a day of my choosing, it would be on a beach somewhere sunny and quiet. Buuuuut we aren't in a position to have that, so here I am. In a quiet room in my home with a window right next to me to let the sun in. And I am just fine with it.
I don't mind that Cory is napping. I am, however, regretting not taking advantage of the opportunity as well. I will tell you why I don't mind that he gets a nap on Mother's Day and I am not:
Because Cory deserves it. Far more than I do. Cory is the reason I am a Mom. He is the reason I have made it this far. That is not a joke or an exaggeration. I depend on him so much, and it has to be physically and mentally exhausting to be married to me, haha. But he always comes to the plate ready to knock it out of the park.
What I am trying to say is...Cory makes me feel like a special Mother all of the time. It may be as simple as when he compliments how I handled something...or the way he looks at me when I read Jack a book...or when he works from home just to help me out that day. And then there are the bigger things like when he gets me anything I want...or when he doesn't bite my head off when he sees that I have ordered MORE stuff online...or when he surprises me with something completely random like a massage or a night away.
Today wasn't ideal in some ways, but this...this right here...is what I have wanted my entire life. My little family in my little house. With Cory Herron.
Call me lame. Call me mundane. Boring. Whatever. I like it.
